Sorry about the multiple posts today. I removed the post about my Grandma. What I posted was wrong and should have kept to myself. Please forgive me people. Have some of you ignored me? What can I do make myself shine in your eyes' again?

I can get really pissy sometimes. I can make people angry as well: Wency (I NEED SILENCE!), Felice (hey remember that time you took that picture of me and stuck your letter opener between tje eyes in 8th Grade?), Jorge (I don't know but it'll come), and some other people.

I thought I was going to be late for my Development & Pre-production class. I left my house at 3:36 pm and decided to take North Avenue thinking it would be faster. The gas tank was half full so I decided to gas up my aunt's car. It only cost $4.50 (whew). At this time, I was thinking that maybe I should have just taken St. Charles road instead of North Avenue. Traffic is a motherfucking ass with people cutting you off and other types of shit. I arrive at my apartment at 4:48. I go upstairs to bring my clean clothes into my room and leave for my aunt Perla's. I leave the car at her apartment and go upstairs to bring the shit she asked for. It's already 4:54 and I run to the train station. After running onto the train, my right calf muscle begin to spasm and convulse because of the sudden activity in my legs. It begins to hurt like a motherfucking bitch on crack. 5:42 and my class is at 6. I go to the class but before that meet my friends rich and some guy I know but I don't remember his name. Go up at around 5:53 and bam! My teacher is sick with the flu but he just wants to say one thing and then we can split. I submit my assignments and then I leave for the motherfucking day.

On the way home, I see a girl I like working at the Mad Pottery in Oak Park. I couldn't believe it. When I looked inside, I was surprised. I didn't know she worked there. I pass by there everyday but I never looked through its clean, spotless windows. I can't speak to her. It would mean breaking a promise doing that. She intimidates me, she scares me, she freaks me fucking out. What can I do? Why can't this just be a friendship? Does it have to end in hatred and disgust? I don't know. But I just put my head down whenever I think about her. It makes me happy and sad at the same time. I'm an idiot, I'm shit and she's champagne. I'm the lowest common denominator of everything. She truly is beauty defined and it hurts. Really bad.

Tyrone Biggums would certainly love this sandwich.

I wish I had money to buy this. If only the last two discs were subtitled in English then this would be a must buy for me.

This Casshern set looks so beautiful.

Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago

Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong

See I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out
When You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now

And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true

I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now
And You're raising the dead in me

I want to see miracles, see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You're raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts.
I'm not copping out. Not copping out. Not copping out.

Switchfoot ~ Twenty-Four

What is beauty? What is the true definition of beauty? Is it only in a physical state of mind? Or can it be mental?

Why does beauty haunt me?
Why does beauty follow me everywhere I go?
Why does she do this?
It hurts.
My mind breaks.
It smashes.
I lose all focus when all I see is beauty.
And it has never looked so wonderful.

Apart from Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story and Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle, Team America: World Police is one of the funniest movies this year. I think I need to go watch it again because I missed so many parts due to extreme laughter. I felt like I did 300 crunches after the movie was finished. One hilarious speech from the movie:

"We're dicks! We're reckless, arrogant, stupid dicks. And the Film Actors Guild are pussies. And Kim Jong Il is an asshole. Pussies dont like dicks because pussies get fucked by dicks. But dicks also fuck assholes. Assholes that just want to shit on everything. Pussies may think they can deal with assholes their way. But the only thing that can fuck a asshole is a dick, with some balls. The problem with dicks is they fuck too much or fuck when it isn't appropriate. And it takes a pussy to show them that. But sometimes pussies can be so full of shit that they become assholes themselves. Because pussies are a inch and half away from assholes. I don't know much about this crazy crazy world, but I do know this. If you don't let us fuck this asshole we're going to have our dicks and pussies all covered in shit."

HILARIOUS.

Why the hell is Blogger moving so slow?

Anyways, I was at Borders yesterday looking at albums. When two purchases caught my eye: Muse's Absolution or Jimmy Eat World's Futures. Both were at the same cheap ass price ($11.99). But I only knew one track of each album. Decided to give the preview test using Borders' cheap ass headphones. You know what, I made the right decision buying Absolution. It is indeed one of the best albums I have ever heard, period. Wency was right when he started listening to them months ago. My favorite track off the album has to be "Blackout." Gotta love those strings.

Man, I have so much shit to do and so little time.

- Write childhood source story
- Write narrative treatment on source story
- Write presentation
- Do genre photo project
- Write 1st critical review on Dance Africa Chicago 2004
- Finish Development & Pre-production portfolio

Other than that, NO PROBLEM!

House of Flying Daggers
2004
Director: Zhang Yimou
Starring: Takeshi Kaneshiro, Zhang Ziyi, and Andy Lau

House of Flying Daggers is the second martial arts film directed by Zhang Yimou, whose first martial arts film Hero gained recognition for melding beauty and martial arts action into one film. House of Flying Daggers does the same thing but with thrice the emotional heft of Hero and with even more stylish fight sequences.



Takeshi Kaneshiro (Anna Magdalena, Returner) is Jin, one of two captains of Feng Tian County. His mission to locate the House of Flying Daggers. With only the help of the blind Mei (Zhang Ziyi) he is able to do this. His partner and fellow captain, Leo (Andy Lau), tries to tell him that falling in love with Mei can only create more trouble. Kaneshiro and Ziyi give great performances as they both fall in love progressively throughout the film. The only okay performance comes from Lau, who is trying to channel his character in Infernal Affairs. One scene even made me laugh as it's script is identical to Infernal Affairs. Another problem with Lau's character is that there's more to him then the script gives. On the surface, it's just another character, but inside, you know that's there's a fleshed out character waiting to be born.



The fight sequences, however, are of a much higher quality than Hero. Rather than stand against one another in total meditation, the fights are brutal and quite violent. Whereas Hero only had one trinklet of blood coming from a sword, "Daggers" has the blood flow more freely this time. The blood creates more tension in the fight sequences and makes them feel more authentic.



If there is only one downfall of the film, is that the ending is quite lackluster compared to the entire film before it. The story before the final battle is quite enriching, fulfilling, and excellent. Only the ending's script is horrible feeling like a teen movie rather than an epic action motion picture. If there is one good thing about the ending, it's the final words of the film, which struck me as truly brilliant.



The cinematography here compares to Hero is that it is again extremely beautiful but only one color bleeds through the film and that is green (meaning peace and tranquiity in Chinese). I found the cinematography here to be less exhausting and quite amazing.

I think the best part of the film apart from the grand cinematography, great acting, and amazing fight sequences, is actually the music for the film. It can be at times tragic and beautiful at the same time. Hero had a great soundtrack but Tan Dun's contribution felt too much like Crouching Tiger and less original. The score here by Shigeru Umebayashi is original and powerful. I absolutely loved this soundtrack. The final song sung by Kathleen Battle brought chills down my back.



Overall, this film could have been perfect if some of the final dialogue was improved. But it is still, by far, one of the best films of the year.

Grade: A

Some girl gave me my calculator back. She told me that she found it in the corner of the room. Thank God the fucker who stole it dropped it. The girl was really hot by the way. Thank God I wrote my name on the stupid calculator.

My copy of House of Flying Daggers just shipped (booyah!) can't wait for the hotness of Zhang Ziyi. Hope it's here by Thursday afternoon at the fastest!

My genre group project has finally decided to pick a topic: the evolution of visual effects in action films by decade.

70s: Star Wars
80s: Blade Runner or The Terminator
90s: The Matrix
00s: The Lord of the Rings

We hope to get it finished already by next week (sweet!). Even though it's due one month from now.

I got so much shit (homework) to do it's insane. I'm going home tomorrow to do my laundry and some homework. I gotta get my assignments in order because procrastinating can be a bitch and I haven't done anything yet.

My scheduling has been off for a while.

My homework for now:
- Write 1.5 - 2 page screenplay featuring a protagonist and anatagonist.
- Find 12 pictures and write about them on 12 notecards.
- Freshman Seminar photography project
- Genre group project
- Freshman seminar 1st critical review

Finally tried Mozilla Firefox. There Jorge, I tried it. I wouldn't go so far and say that it's the best thing ever but it is a LITTLE better than Microsoft Internet Explorer. I wouldn't go and remove Internet Explorer yet though. A few pages load much faster on IE than Firefox (Blogger, for example) and more pages look more stylized on IE than on Firefox. I'm keeping Firefox though for the features (pop-up blocker, Google toolbar, tabs, etc.) The only thing that makes me not like Firefox is that I can't use Flashget.

Shit, I can't believe that someone would stoop so low to steal my calculator. Motherfucker.

I can't stop listenting to this song (I Want to be You) sung by Andy Lau & Tony Leung. I don't understand a word of it but I just can't stop listening to it. It's just addicting.

As I was reading this article, a solution popped into my head.

The only way that the Filipino film industry can thrive once more is to create something so daring, so original, that it can be released all over the world so it can make more money. Even better, it has to be so good that Hollywood has to remake it.

For example, the Hong Kong film industry was about to give it's last breath. Despite having a huge box office hit in Shaolin Soccer, the industry was still tanking. Enter Andrew Lau and Alan Mak's Infernal Affairs, the film generated a record setting $50 million Chinese yuan. It's simple yet original plot made people actually want to watch it in theatres rather than buying it off the street. It rejuvenated the Hong Kong film industry and made Brad Pitt want to remake it with his Plan B production company. With Jackie Chan's New Police Story already smashing records all across Asia, the HK film industry has never been better.

Filipino film directors have to stop relying on clichés and start thinking about original plots. They also need to make films that have an international appeal rather than a local one. The film industry can thrive once more. Shit, why not make a Filipino version of Infernal Affairs with Richard Gomez and Bong Revilla? It would suck, but people would see it. I think it would be hilarious though.

My internet connection has been moving really slow. So slow I can't even download por......oops, I mean theatrical trailers. I'm supposed to have a meeting with my Freshman Seminar group members tomorrow but they haven't sent shit to me so it looks like the meeting is cancelled.

Happy 24th birthday Pammy!!!!!

I'm beginning to hate my math class. Not because of the teacher, but because of the dumbass students. Some of them are just disrespectful to the teacher. They don't shut up, listen, or even pay attention to the lesson. On top of that, I counted 7 people being at the most 36 minutes tardy. What's the use of coming to class when you're gonna be 40 fucking minutes tardy? Some of the students are just dumb as hell. Some don't know what a remainder is or what the hell a reciprocal is. It's just pathetic. Some of them can't even add or subtract fractions! This is horrible, I know it's just an art school but shit, we learned fractions in grade school.

Bought House of Flying Daggers at Yesasia.com and it seems to be pretty cheap ($21.98 with first day shipping). I hope it comes here already by next Tuesday or something. The trailer and a few screenshots of the film seem to be pretty exhilarating. Wency told me that he already saw SAW on bootleg and tells me that the twist is fucked up and you don't know shit until the final reel (AWESOME!). I'm anticipating that film a great deal along with Team America. TA looks pretty funny from the looks of it (I couldn't stop laughing at a clip of Kim Jong-Il).

It looks like during my freshman seminar class that the fucking teacher has been barraging us with fucking homework again. It's not that I hate that class but the projects that the students have to do are completely pointless. If only I could drop the class but I can't because dropping it would mean my status would no longer be full time.

This movie looks so fucked up and has the only trailer that literally scares the shit out of me.
I can't wait for October 29th.

Finally got a call from Leah. She apologized numerous times for her behavior the other week and I asked her what I did. She replied that it wasn't me but she was just hating everything that day and that her current boyfriend was giving her a headache (the fucker). Turns out that he was having sex with other chicks behind her back and she caught him red handed. Add to that that she was having her period and thus her behavior was affected. I'm gonna kill that her asshole boyfriend if I ever see that ex of hers. You can't treat a girl like Leah like that. She is sweet, tender, and loving but any guy fucking other chicks behind her back won't go unnoticed.

She told me that she wanted a hug from me because she felt so bad. I want a hug from her too but we are so both far away from each other. I want to smell that exquisite perfume that she wears. I want to feel her soft hands and kiss her soft lips. I want to so bad but I can't.

She even told me that her current female relationship with her girlfriend is falling apart as well. Poor girl, she can't even get a break.

I miss you love. I miss you a lot.

Decided to change my template because I was getting tired of my other one.

Whoa. I haven't had a real update in a while. Been busy with school and such.

Well school is.........

in one word......

AWESOME.

I love my classes. I love even my mundane classes because the teachers are cool. I like my Visual Audio class the best because the teacher just fucking rocks. He's a sound mixer named Cory who did mixing on the movies Apollo 13, Batman Forever, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and some other shit. He recently finished the sound on Team America: World Police and one of his current projects is Batman Begins. We get to watch badass clips of movies in 7.1 DTS surround!!!!!

No wonder Columbia's tuition is $8000. It's because the classes are so kickass!

Homework has been okay. I just finished a project today for Freshman Seminar and it went pretty well. I tried calling Leah to ask her what I did to get a "fuck you" from her but she hasn't responded. I hope I get a response from her. Should I give her another e-mail? Should I call her again? Do you guys think I'm smothering her? Guys, give me your thoughts please. I know people read this blog so leave a message or something.

I'm pretty lonely when I'm living in the apartment because there's no one to talk to and the internet is so fucking slow so using it would like be not using it (get it?).

Was watching the debate between Kerry and Bush earlier and Bush is a fucking nutwit I don't know where to begin.

I really hate Bush's comments and his only defense is that Kerry made a mistake during the first debate (his "global test" comment). Jeez Mr. Bush, get another fucking reason to defend yourself rather than the "global test" comment.

I think I just found a goldmine in High Definition.

Movie-List has been putting up theatrical trailers in HD. I already have downloaded Troy, Spider-Man 2, The Bourne Supremacy, Saw, Blade: Trinity, and Resident Evil 2. The quality of these trailers are really impressive, especially the the Spidey 2 one.

Watching the 101 most unforgettable moments of SNL and I've never laughed so hard in a while. I noticed that none of the recent SNL episodes have classic moments because that means IT SUCKS FUCKING NUTS!!!!!!!